The Things She Left Behind
Zytkoskee, A. (2019). The things she left behind. In E. Kraljii (Ed.), Against death: 35 essays on living . Anvil Press. My late wife...
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I needed to write, to express myself through written language not only so that others might hear me but so that I could hear myself ― Gabor Mate
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Mateo Zytkoskee
Nov 1, 20222 min
A Bird to Remember
I'm biking to work when I pass a little dead bird on the polished granite tiles surrounding the front of the American University's...
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Mateo Zytkoskee
Nov 1, 20221 min
Having Both
As I prepare a last-minute Halloween costume for a party in Dubai—I’m going as a guru, which feels beautifully absurd—I think about my...
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Mateo Zytkoskee
Aug 2, 20224 min
Resiliency & Uncertainty
In my twenties, I worked a sketchy job with an old leathery man called Hollywood. No one would tell me how he earned this nickname, but...
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Mateo Zytkoskee
May 10, 20225 min
Playing Doctor
It occurs to me in this moment what has changed, why the kids’ version of playing doctor is no longer driving me into the garage to cry alon
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Mateo Zytkoskee
May 10, 20222 min
Surviving Cancer
The truth is also that I am deeply wounded and, I’ve come to see, will always be. Always. The question is, what am I going to do with these
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Mateo Zytkoskee
May 10, 20223 min
The Wishing Game
When I can get out of the wishing game, I recognize that life is in session. Now. That contentment is a daily practice
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Mateo Zytkoskee
May 10, 20223 min
Channeling Love
There is something magical I do from time to time I think of as “channeling love.” It’s never planned and, the truth is
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Mateo Zytkoskee
Apr 19, 20224 min
Moment of Surrender
When I come to, my wrists and legs are Velcro'd to a hospital bed in Spain. Tubes run out of various parts of my body and it takes me a...
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Mateo Zytkoskee
Apr 22, 20203 min
Relatives
I remember an expression this old-timer I knew, Bob, used to say, "'fair' is where pigs get ribbons." This just makes me angrier.
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Mateo Zytkoskee
Apr 12, 20205 min
Black & White
It’s dark when my fiancé’s father and I head to Safeway for a 6am opening in which those over 60 are allowed in first. I’m his "helper."
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