Illness & Healing

I needed to write, to express myself through written language not only so that others might hear me but so that I could hear myself ― Gabor Mate

Resilience in the Face of Uncertainty

In my twenties, I worked a sketchy job with an old leathery man called Hollywood. No one would tell me how he earned this nickname, but...

Jul 64 min read

When I come to, my wrists and legs are Velcro'd to a hospital bed in Spain. Tubes run out of various parts of my body and it takes me a...

Jun 264 min read

Zytkoskee, A. (2019). The things she left behind. In E. Kraljii (Ed.), Against death: 35 essays on living . Anvil Press. My late wife...

Sep 24, 20248 min read

I'm biking to work when I pass a little dead bird on the polished granite tiles surrounding the front of the American University's...

Nov 1, 20222 min read

As I prepare a last-minute Halloween costume for a party in Dubai—I’m going as a guru, which feels beautifully absurd—I think about my...

Nov 1, 20221 min read

It occurs to me in this moment what has changed, why the kids’ version of playing doctor is no longer driving me into the garage to cry alon

May 10, 20225 min read

The truth is also that I am deeply wounded and, I’ve come to see, will always be. Always. The question is, what am I going to do with these

May 10, 20222 min read

When I can get out of the wishing game, I recognize that life is in session. Now. That contentment is a daily practice

May 10, 20223 min read

There is something magical I do from time to time I think of as “channeling love.” It’s never planned and, the truth is

May 10, 20223 min read

I remember an expression this old-timer I knew, Bob, used to say, "'fair' is where pigs get ribbons." This just makes me angrier.

Apr 22, 20203 min read

It’s dark when my fiancé’s father and I head to Safeway for a 6am opening in which those over 60 are allowed in first. I’m his "helper."

Apr 12, 20205 min read